If I retired for a very loooooong time....and come out to do things? I do do things, completely. I am lazy in some way. Its very annoying.

 Retired means:

Skills retired

Mentality retired

Sleeping mode retired

Focus retired

Want retired.

I explain, ADD.

Skills retired, means....I really done it one millions times including the times I am sleeping all the way retiring period of time. Don't bugging me! 

Mentality retired, means....wood, river, sky, air.....I retired. Breath, sleep. Not reading books, its couch is all mine, at nick house, that is one couch, mine. Tall Roof, that is the ceiling, junks I so wish all out, all around, he collects, sleep.

Sleeping mode retired....Darkness, to take shower, to bath, water....has to filter....yellow water...but if its Grand hotel water...its all the way up. no more saving water....Darkness...its darkness in outside has no light, to see no curtain inside bathroom. Darkness means, whom is at the driveway, darkness means, there is a car passing by our house. Darkness is meaning, nick comes home, one car, car light, that is his car, dinner ready. Darkness, is this house, all by myself, darkness all around....darkness.....all envrionment, darkness night falls.

Focus retired... don't care about a book i read, don't inner experience, dont ever say words other than mantra and cooking, or jumping all around that damn nick's house, cannot be walk on. Things should fall down, and crash, he deserved. "oh~ the pictures frames gone?" After I was gone? Mimmo and Tony 10 years ago should be dead, and gone.

Want retired... retire means no money...I do not collect junks. No basement. There is a carpo. You hang things, store up there. My mother bought things, hide in there? She comes, police come. She got it herself, passport.

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